Dream: I was at my house on Lake Titus Road, yet it was now her house and we all came to visit her. Someone knocked on the door and gave me a pretty round layer cake, white with one rose on it for her. I thought, 'yum, we're going to have cake tonight!". The door opened and people came in bringing a huge huge sheet cake and at the head of it was attatched another round layer cake. It was so big we had to lay it on the floor and she sat at one corner on a stool near the door. The cake was covered in rich icing and swirls and roses and had a slight golden sheen. She was wearing a 1950's golden wool coat with round collar and big corsage on it. She had on a pill box hat with a net and more flowers. She was beaming with joy and we were all so pleased for her getting the recognition she deserved. ---end of dream---
comments: Nanny Mag's raised a bunch of kids, 6, and by herself when my Dad was 16 and my grandfather died. She always cooked great big meals on holidays when we visited her. More and more I think of her. I never knew her as an adult but I understand so much more now and wish I could go and learn about what her life and what she was like. I miss her. I feel sort of cheated because when my Dad died I was 15 and there was no real contact after that. Life is strange. I suppose my grandkids will be busy teens wanting nothing to do with old people and I hope I understand that they just don't get it yet. Maybe it will be different. I don't think my Mom was helpful at all about encouraging us to keep a relationship with her estranged husband. I only see glimmers of 'facts' and more fiction so what can I do but let it go. Find peace in the now.
No comments:
Post a Comment